haa... so tired... still depressed... I made this quote a few nights before because of my depression...

"It's quite disappointing... You like someone yet you can't tell him/her what you really feel... Then you end up seeing him/her with somebody else... You'll say, "If I told him/her what I feel towards him/her, then would I be the one by his/her side?"

heck... my mind just pops random things... oh well... I feel nauseous... argh... I've been out the whole day... still, the place we went in just reminded me more of my depression... so it didn't  really left my mind... -sigh- what is happening to me?? should I do this or not?? argh!! enough!

that'll be all...

this post is still lame...-eri-kun

and still... shut up...-eriol

Okay... so I won't be posting anymore manga caps at the end of my entries... it's kinda troublesome for me though... cause I have to scan all the chapters to find a certain emotion... which is kinda hard for my part... yeah, I'm just getting myself tired so I'm dropping it... and also the status and music thingy...

anyways, I've been feeling so depressed the past few days... why? hmm... how should I put it? it's about love... I know I shouldn't be thinking about this stuff but hey, I'm still human, my mind runs like any other person... I'm thinking about what would be like to have a boyfriend... too early? nah... it's a common thing today, right? and also, you can't blame me for not having one since birth... pitiful... this kind of talk doesn't suit me... haha!~ my, my, my... am i gonna change my image? nope... I am what I am... only those who are close to me knows what's behind that mask I made called "image"... only those who are close to me knows who I really am... but still... I couldn't tell them these things... well that's what I am... heh...

till next time...

this post is kinda plain AND lame...-eri-kun

shut up...-eriol

[Status: tired.. depressed... and I want to cry...]

-sigh- d*mnit... and I was hoping to get my test permit today but NO... I did NOT get it... oooohhh... we went there around 7am and waited in the line until around 10am and got inside the office... but when I was about to get my picture taken, the lady said that my name didn't show up in their database even though I was already paid last month... sh*t... she referred me to someone to somewhere but he wasn't there... we had to wait for more than 2 hours yet he still hasn't showed up... we ate a little snack because it was already lunch time and d*mn I was starving... we returned half an hour later and at last he turned up... I, with other applicant's who had the same problem, went to his work station... he searched the files... it still wasn't there... he compared my payment slip with one of the applicant's and there... instead of punching in "PUPCET" for PUP, the teller puched in "UPCAT"... that's why my name wasn't in the list of the payers for the entrance exam at PUP because of the teller making a mistake... argh! all that trouble and wating and patience and enduring and hard work was useles... -sigh- my lucky day... hooray... -groan-

so that's all that happened to me... spent the whole day in a waste... -sigh- next time...

[Status: a bit nervous...]

[Music: the sound of my typing... eh?]

haa~ I feel a bit tired... depressed... sad... ah? -sigh- I don't know... I feel a bit messed up... mixed emotions and such.. -sigh-

anyways, it's friday again... and soon, it'll be monday... I'll be going to the university to get my picture taken for the test permit... I wish I'm on the first batch so I won't worry about the cut-off... I'll go ask my mom to let me take an entrance exam at another university... just in case... but I really wanted to go to PUP... The Polytechnic University of the Philippines... well aside from the reason that one of my uncle and auntie graduated there, both say that when I graduate from PUP I'll get a job right away... they say you'll get offers while you're in your senior year... hmmm... it's a good reason... and also I do hope that the tuition fee won't hurt our budget that much...

I'll start reviewing by the first week of January... wish me luck... -grin-

next time~

[Status: a bit depressed for no reason...]

[Music: the TV...]

Oh, before I get flamed, here's a short note...

Disclaimer: I do not own Loveless, Get Backers, Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicles, Flame of Recca and any other manga series, which their images (cropped by me) are posted after my posts, that would be featured in the future... Nor am I in any way associated with their respective creators/owners... This also applies to other anime/manga/music that will be mentioned...

-huff- there... I'm just making sure though so I posted this up...

what happened to me today??

I just went out with a friend of mine... We went to the mall, played in the arcade, strolled around, and had a short drink... We went to another mall and played in the arcade again and went home...-wink- well I was able to try out the game I wanted to play long ago so I had a fun...-smile-

hmmm... what else? I don't have much to say anymore... so this'll be all... jaa!~

[Status: sleepy...]

[Music: the TV and various sounds...]

huwah~ it's been a long time ne?? been really busy with other stuffs and enjoying my vacation... but next week I'll go to a university to get my picture taken for my test permit... the exams would be on February 2009... actually I should be studying for college now but since we're planning to move I didn't want to skip classes or stop in the middle of the year and because we're not sure where to move...

anyways, I've been waking up nearly lunch time so I always skip breakfast... *wink* what can I do?? I always sleep around midnight because of the net.. hehe...

well, till next time...

[Status: just fine...]

[Music: none]

so here I am again... our internet just got back!~ hurray!~

and I also have to finish up a chapter for my fanfic... aww... it's not half-done yet too...

oh! speaking of fanfic please read my first two...^^

please CLICK HERE to view my profile and read my fanfics...^^ and I hope  you'll leave a review...^^

well this'll be all...

[I still have not decided which manga series to use for the pic]

[Status: a little better...]

[Music: the TV...]


since we're improving in technology and the internet is quite useful these days, online shopping is quite popular... though a ittle bit expensive... EcoQuest Intl is quite useful abroad...

this is also suitable for people who don't have time to go out and shop... the advantage is, you don't have to go out and get exhausted walking around in malls... the disadvantages are you pay a bit more higher because of the delivery (well maybe there are some agencies that has free delivery) and you can't be sure that the product you ordered is of good quality... quite troublesome though...

me? I'd rather see the product myself so my money won't go to waste... (that is, if I have the money to do so... hehe)

time will be saved though you can't be sure to get the best quality product... in our time today, being practical is also needed today... with such high priced merchandise, you can't just spend your money on something...

see ya...

[Status: still not good...]

[Music: the tv...]


teamwork is essential for one thing to succeed... because without it, everything will fall apart and nothing good comes out... collaborate with your team... it's the best thing to do... don't argue about small things... if there's a problem, talk about how to solve it rather than letting your mouths work...

without teamwork, you won't be able to finish something faster, better and more beautiful... it really is an ingredient you just can't miss... for example, your coffee will taste awful without sugar (except, if you prefer to drink pure black coffee)... for pancakes, it won't become pancakes without eggs... see... you can't just take teamwork out of the picture...

think carefully before jumping into something... talk about it carefully... think about solutions... plans... that's how it works... you won't be able to contstruct a very tall building, a strong bridge or a sturdy plain or ship without teamwwork...

the key to success is also teamwork... learn to calm down and think about everything before going...

see ya...

[Status: not good...]

[Music: Kokoro no Camera by Otoha (Natsumi Image Song from GetBackers)


Well, having wrinkled faces is the last thing girls want to have... that's a big problem, especially for those who work very hard and work over time... it will be hard for them to take care of themselves...

others take care of their skin by applying natural stuff on their faces... it helps a lot though... and effective as well... there are some skin care for anti aging available in the market... of course, it's kinda expensive so few people are able to buy one...

it is quite troublesome if you have a wrinkled face... for young women, they'll find it hard to socialize with others... well, that's my point of view...

I often saw commercials of anti aging creams and such and claim that you'll look younger in a short period of time... well, I don't really believe that it's really effective... I'm not the type who belives so easily on fancy stuff like those...

it's not bad to use those creams and whats just make sure you're not allergic to one of it's contents... it might get worse if you're not careful...

see ya...